A moment of presence and self reflection.
Since the arrival of the twins, a year ago, days in my home-life are becoming a little easier. I had a moment of reflection the other day. I stood in my living room taking note of the time on the microwave to see if nap time was approaching. Feeling tired and also the need to accomplish some things for the day, I found myself sad that is was still an hour away.
I sat on the floor as the babies were playing and they both scurried closer to me. They came in and snuggled in for a hug. It was in that moment I realized I hadn’t done anything with them other then the duties of feeding and changing them. I didn’t stop to kiss them or hug them at all. Then Kian, seeing that I was now at ground level, also came running over trying to push the babies away so he could get some love too.
I always joke that I feel 80 years old as my body still feels the effect from carrying the twins. It was in that moment that it hit me like a brick wall. I have been wishing these days away, when in fact these are the best days of my life! Despite feeling 80 years old, I am not. I am healthy.
I have not been taking in my days with my kids fully. I want to change that, I want to be a kid again and get on the floor and play with them. I want to create memories with them, I want to bake with them, read with them, and teach them how to cook, how to color, and how to sew. All the things I’m sure I have done but I have not been present in those moments.
I want to look back and have my memories. I have decided my camera is going to now be part of my daily life while witnessing this amazing family I created. I urge you all to do the same. Tonight place your camera in your living space and use it to capture all the adorable and amazing moments in your life tomorrow and the days after.
Soon our babies will be grown and these days will be over. Imagine looking back in 30 years and reliving these days in the images and knowing you were enjoying those moments and being present in them.
I will be adding a few more personal blogs to help encourage you to keep active with your camera around your home with your families. I do not promise to be on my game through these images, as my main goal is to capture the moments as they happen, after enjoying them a little for myself .
I am sure you will all enjoy a little glimpse into my crazy days being a mom of 5 kiddies. My home usually looks like a tornado went through it until the end of the day, but I don’t even give a care.
Enjoy my first being present blog. Its all about outside toys coming inside, building castles with couch cushions, sibling fun, and a bit of kitchen baking on this day.